What’s old is new again.

My very first website domain was beautyinabundance.com.

That was 20 years ago.

I didn’t keep that domain too long because when I called tech support once and gave the guy my domain he (audibly) attempted to smother a laugh at the name. He took it to mean I was full of myself, when in fact the name had come from the paper bag scene in this movie. 🙄

My next domain was mymosaiclife.com, followed closely by anexperimentingratitude.com, and then on from there.

Let’s step back to that time, and talk about the me I was then.

I’ve been looking back at some of my newsletters and other writing from 10-20 years ago and I don’t mind telling you that I see someone I dig in all this writing.

I see a style and substance that draws me, even now.

I wish she’d known then that what she was doing and sharing and stepping into was worthy and valuable. That it was something special.

She was so doubtful of her worth.

She has / I have spent these last years wandering.

And while I appreciate that “Not all who wander are lost…” she was well and truly lost for a long time.

Maybe it’s true that we must first be lost in order to be found.

I’ve walked a lot of paths since then.

Spelunking into depths that many shy away from, weaving light through mystery, and coming back with a quilt for the ages.

One that will comfort me and others as I continue putting together this mosaic called life.

One that includes luminous bits from all those years ago.

Because without knowing it then, she is entrancing me now.

I follow her footprints and draw her close, as kindred. Closer yet.

I hold out a lantern for both of us and all who yearn for more than what’s shown in daily life.

We’ll pick up the pieces we unknowingly left behind and venture forth into the inky warmth of the night, where shadows invite us into otherworldly playgrounds, and Raven encourages the aliveness that comes from endings leading to beginnings.